Im Awesome!

Everyone this past week has been making me feel like such an amazing person, but I'm not sure I deserve it. I don't think I'm anyone special, in fact I know I'm not, but my friends and even people Ive known my entire life, especially my dance teacher, have made me feel like such an extraordinary person. Its been a really hard week for me, finally being out of my bubble and everything, with it being exactly 2 years from Tuesday, and I'm just so glad I can have such good caring friends and family here to help me though it, even when I don't say whats on my mind, or whats bothering me. I love you guys so much and I owe you everything for being here for me. I wish I could return the favor but I don't know what to do. I love you all with my whole heart.


xoxo
Melissa Marie

Stress!

I have so much stress in my life right now and I dont know how to deal with any of it. Rigth now I dont even know if I can pass english! And if I dont pass english I dont graduate! Im so incredibly stressed out right now. Hopefully things will be a lot better this summer. Got to go work on stuff byes!

Same Old, Same Old

Not very much happened to me today, I went to school, night school, then home to babysit. I'm kinda mad at myself because I didn't save my paper I did in night school, so now I have to retype it because my teacher had to make corrections so the teacher Thursday could grade it instead of just grading it so it could be done with it! So I might have to stay til 7:30 on Thursday because of that! Well I got to go. Talk to you later. Bye.

CAR!!!!!!

Hey just wanted to let you know that I finally got a car! I'm picking it up tomorrow. Its a 1996 toyota camery, and it runs great! Im so excited i can barely stand it! Its payed for and everything!!!!! Well got to go and everything!

BABIES

I cant handle much more babysitting for free I feel like his after school mommy. Its getting extremely stressful. Well sorry I cant write more but I feel bad handing him off to my mom, even for a few minutes.

Guys

I don't get why they cant talk to you about normal stuff! I have this one guy friend that all I can talk to him about is the camp that I'm going to be going to this summer. I mean its not like I don't try to talk about other stuff, but every time I do he acts like I didn't even say that! Seriously though, I love the camp but there's more to life than that. So if you're not gonna treat me like an actual person, I'm done, I cant take it anymore.

Car issues

Just filling people in on the latest issue for me. So here's the deal, I'm 17 and I'm trying to show people how responsible I can be. I don't have a car in my possession yet but I'm trying to get one. Every time I've had a potential car my mom talks to her boyfriend and suddenly i cant get it I know she's looking out for me but its hard to remember that sometimes, exceptionally since I have my selfish teenage moments when all i care about is myself, what i want, and how I'm gonna get it. right now i have a car lined up for me to get once I finish my term paper and apply to be on staff at Hantesa (for those who don't know what that is; its a camp that I've been going to for pretty much ever!). So I'm pretty close but I'm not there yet. Check you later.

Hey guys

I finally have my own blog now, obviously. This is just a little way for me to vent and let people know whats going on in my life, and for you guys to give your imput about any issues going on. Enjoy!